Our hidden neighbors

Any visit to the medina of Rabat will reveal to you a world of constant activity. You’ll find vendors selling street food, fruit, spices, djellabas, streetwear, shoes, electronics, teapots, art, and just about all the other things you could want when visiting Morocco. There are homes and hotels all over the medina, and restaurants for when you get hungry. But even with all the people who live in Rabat medina, there are yet more inhabitants that we don’t usually think about: the cats. Trust me, they are everywhere, and not just in the medina. Cats are all over Rabat and the other cities of Morocco. After the cats were mentioned briefly at the pre-departure orientation, I had a preconceived idea in my mind that the cats were just considered by Moroccans to be a nuisance like stray animals here in the US, but I was delightfully surprised to find that this is not the case.

A cat napping in the sun at the Chellah
My camera shutter woke her up!

The key difference between the treatments of strays in America versus Morocco is that in America they are seen as belonging to nobody, while the street cats here in Morocco are seen as belonging to everybody. There’s one cat in particular who I usually see on the way to class in the morning, an orange kitty who’s always hanging around outside the hanout. She has a little cardboard box with a bed inside which sits there on the sidewalk under the overhang of the building, and the mul hanout feeds her each day; I’ve seen people passing by give her scraps too. Moroccans often collect the leftover food from their meals, and instead of throwing it out or saving it for later, they put it outside for the animals on the street. Taking care of Moroccan cats is a collective endeavor, which I think could never happen in the US because we are (for some reason) so averse to collective responsibility and altruistic cooperation. The longer I’m here, the more I like the Moroccan way, since it helps to ensure that these beautiful creatures don’t go hungry, and overall I think that the street cats here are much better cared for than those in the US. Still, I’m a little sad that these cats don’t have warm homes and humans to bond with.

Most of my friends know that I love cats, so resisting the urge to pet every one I see here in Morocco has been a real struggle. The cat that lives by the hanout has a couple scars on her head, but is in otherwise good shape. Many of the cats here have at least some small wounds, which is indicative of a lack of veterinary care for them – no surprise, since they live in the streets, but still it’s saddening to see. I would feel guilty if my pets had untreated injuries, so I wonder if Moroccans feel the same about their neighborhood animals. We know of the bystander effect: unfortunately, sometimes things that are everyone’s responsibility end up not being taken care of at all, since each person thinks everyone else will take care of it. I’m not sure whether the bystander effect is actually a factor here, but at the very least there certainly is the potential for the communal method of caring for the cats to fail in this respect. I worry how many cats in Rabat are in awful condition and we just don’t see them.

In the Qasbah

In my opinion, the way Moroccans take care of their street cats as communities is a reflection of their hospitable culture towards guests. There seems to be a notion that since the cats are there, they have to be provided for – I interpret the collection of leftovers for the animals as symbolic of Moroccans’ respect for them. It gives me the impression that the animals are treated as neighbors, which is a little bit like the idea in the US that pets are members of the family. Similarly, when you are a guest in a Moroccan home, no expense is spared to ensure you have comfortable accommodations, plenty of food, and so forth. This is an extension of the Moroccan sense of community, in which neighbors just take care of each other; I feel like this isn’t usually the case in the United States. I also enjoy that the Moroccan sense of community gives a sense of belonging and collective duty to your neighbors – in the US, people tend to be too individualistic for that atmosphere to exist. However, my time here has showed me how important it is to work together as a community to care for each other, and the positive effects it can have for everyone involved.

Even the way that strays are perceived in each culture reveals something about the way Americans and Moroccans think differently. Americans often see stray animals as a problem which needs to be dealt with: the animals are considered a nuisance to the community and are collected either to be put in a shelter or euthanized. On the other hand, Moroccans see the cats as part of their neighborhoods, and as a result there isn’t really an issue to be dealt with, but the cats are taken care of to some extent. Ultimately, I can’t really see either method as perfect. It just doesn’t sit right with me to think of these animals as problems to the community; after all, they’re living beings, and I think that regarding the population of homeless animals this way fails to respect that status. I concede that it is nice to consider the potential for animals in shelters to find homes and loving humans, and animals in shelters can be spayed and neutered to avoid creating more homeless animals. But this doesn’t always happen, and the sad alternative is euthanasia because we can’t (or won’t) provide for the animals as a community. In this regard, the Moroccan way makes a lot of sense to me, since the cats are in general provided for with regard to food and shelter. But then again, the lack of veterinary care is a concern for Moroccan street cats.

I won’t pretend to know what the best way is to take care of the strays of Morocco and the US. But I do think that Moroccans’ sense of community and the benefits it brings to the care of their street cats is commendable, and I want to emulate that sense of community myself. I think that we don’t take enough care of each other in the US – certainly I’m no exception – and I’m committing now to being a better and more attentive friend and neighbor in my community at home.

Respect

Something that has been on my mind the past few weeks is the concept and practice of respect. The Oxford Dictionary defines respect as “a feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements” or “due regard for the feelings, wishes, or rights of others”, but I think it is a really difficult concept to define. Respect is almost an emotion, and it is something very different and personal to every individual.

Personally, I feel as though I am a respectful person. I have been raised to be respectful to my elders. I try to be aware of how my actions affect the people around me. I will be polite even with people I don’t particularly like. Everyone has something to offer in the world and it is important to keep that in mind. This does not mean that I am perfect of course, and I think this trip had made me realize how much I need to improve.

Surprisingly, the tram is one of the best places to see respect. There is standing and sitting room on the tram. People sitting in seats will leap up and offer their spot to anyone who they feel deserves it more than they do. The elderly, the young, women, the disabled will all be offered several seats as soon as they step on the train. Even if they try to refuse, people insist that they take their spot. I am amazed at the attentiveness of the tram-riding Moroccans. I am usually so occupied with conversing with my friends, or looking outside, or thinking about my ‘to-do’ list that I will not really be paying attention to who is entering and exiting the tram. By the time I do realize that someone boarding the tram may need my spot, they have already been given one by several other people. I wonder if this makes me seem rude?

I am also amazed at how instinctive and casual these interactions are. I feel like if someone were to give up their seat on a busy tram in New York or another big city in America, they would immediately be posting about it on social media or looking for praise. Instead, in Morocco, I see such interactions several times a tram ride, and it is completely second nature.

 

There is also a lot of respect towards the disabled. Although the roads and buildings are not always accessible (especially those ramps and sidewalks!), I feel like people are more helpful and friendly towards the disabled. Frequently, there has been an elderly man in a wheelchair who boards the tram near the IES center. As he is trying to board, there is a slight incline, and his strength is probably not all that it used to be. He struggles to wheel himself from the platform onto the tram, but people will immediately give him a gentle pull or push into the tram. One of my friends told me about how once when she was riding the tram, there was a man sitting down and holding two crutches. The tram stopped at his station, and he was struggling to stand and get out of his seat. Immediately, people made sure the doors didn’t close and helped him get his things and stand. There is such a big concept of independence in America, that sometimes it leads to an ‘every man for himself’ situation. I wonder how these situations would have played out differently in the States. I think that there is a lot to learn from Moroccan culture, and it is important to take the good away from anywhere you go.

 

moroccan home

The longer I spend in Morocco the more comfortable I become. The stares and calls don’t bother me as much. The begging for money is more of an annoyance than an inconvenience.  I don’t feel nervous or scared walking around. The language barrier remains but the more we try to speak to people the nicer and more receptive to us. People laugh at our Darija but I know they appreciate the effort. 

One of the things in Morocco that could use some effort is the buses. Public transit in general is usually not prime however the buses in Rabat are especially horrendous. They look as though they shouldn’t be running. Like the engines might fall out at any given minute. The windows, if you can even call them that, are shattered like someone threw boulders through them. I have seen one or two buses that actually have duct tape keeping them together. Some look like they don’t have doors. A few look like they’ve actually been set on fire. I wonder why the buses haven’t been fixed. Not fixed so much as thrown away. They could be put on display in a museum. The trams are beautiful and new and don’t even have the stench of stale urine that public transit is characterized by. They are efficient and smooth, so it confuses me that people choose to take the bus when it looks like it could give out at any minute. Unless they are really that cheap to ride I don’t see an upside. 

I think I have officially started to be homesick but not for the reasons I thought I would be. I miss the comfort of my own bed and my own room sure I knew I would miss that, but I miss the convenience of having a full-size fridge, a shower I don’t have to wear shoes in, a car, speaking the same language as everyone else around. The easiness of living in your own home and not being a resident for two months. And of course, I miss people at home too it’s so weird living in the age of social media where you can see everyone doing everything and almost feel like you’re there until you realize you aren’t, you’re 3000 miles away. I would never trade this opportunity for the world it’s been some of the days of my life, but I does sting a little to see everyone having fun without you no matter how much fun you’re having. And I can’t say it’s been all fun and games in Morocco it can be really hard here. No matter how safe and easy you feel you always need to remember you aren’t really familiar with your surroundings. If something were to happen to one of us we wouldn’t even really be able to communicate with the police and we aren’t sure they would even try to do something because they simply might not care. It’s a scary thought. Not that the police in America are flawless people but for the most part they will help you if you call. Here you can’t be so sure of that.

With such little time left in Morocco I’m determined to make the absolute most out of this country that’s been my home for the past month.

staring problems

I’ve seen a lot of things in my two weeks in Morocco. This country has so many good things and amazing people and places sometimes it seems like it’s more than just one singular country. You can look at an amazing view from the Kasbah only to be interrupted by someone selling you tissues for the equivalent of 10 cents in the US so they can survive. That’s definitely one thing that’s thrown me off in my time here. I’ve seen panhandlers and beggars and people trying to sell you things on the street but it’s more intense here. It could just be because I don’t speak the language and I don’t feel as comfortable but it seems to bother me more when they get angry for not giving them money. Which brings me to another hard thing about this country. For the most part in the US beggars and panhandlers are older people who you can clearly tell are not going to use the money to survive. But here it’s young children or women with their babies or elderly women with canes. How do you choose?

You can’t give everyone who asks for money your money because then you don’t have any. I usually will give the children money maybe that’s just my maternal side but I find to feel the worst for them. I’m sure they aren’t choosing to sell magnets, flowers, and tissues to survive they’d rather be acting like children.

Moroccan people are especially nice. They treat guests like kings and are nice and helpful during most interactions I’ve witnessed. Even interactions with police officers are different than in America. However Moroccan people stare. I can’t tell whether as a culture people just stare for a long time as opposed to American standards but its noticeably long. In America if you are staring at someone and they make eye contact with you, you look away- in morocco that is not the case. They will continue to stare even going so far as to turn around after you’ve walked past. It’s almost unnerving as staring usually doesn’t mean something good. I know that I obviously look different than most people here and I am quite obviously a tourist. But the way people stare is borderline rude. And then when they make no effort to hide the fact that they’re talking about me is really strange. Americans have a stereotype of being rude and obnoxious, but I would never openly talk about someone that has done nothing to me. But that could be a cultural or an upbringing thing.

The catcalling in Morocco is new level. Never have I been talked about so much. No matter how you dress or act the men here still have a comment some even go as far as following us for a short while. Even American construction workers have nothing on young Moroccan men. But even though I think they genuinely think we are your typical American floosy they don’t actually want us to respond to them they would have no idea how to react if we walked up to them to talk. Maybe we should do that one day as a social experiment see how they react if we don’t seem scared. Because I think that’s why they do it. Men need to have control. Its in their DNA and in a country like morocco where its not a great political or economic scene it’s their form of power. They know that we aren’t from here so we don’t feel totally comfortable or even safe at times. And they are from here they know the people the police the language the streets and they exert that over us.

Overall Morocco is filled with amazing culture and people peppered with the same sad problems every country faces.

Culture Shock? Maybe Not…

For my third blog post in Morocco, I won’t really be talking about Morocco. I haven’t seen as much of the country, or especially the city of Rabat, as much as I expected or wanted. Likely the most significant element as to why, is that I have only been traveling as part of a group (and by traveling I literally just mean leaving the dorm and walking down the street). At the first introspection, I presumed that I was simply more affected by culture shock and fear of being an American woman alone in Morocco, with all the internalized prejudices towards which that hints. While unpleasant, this was an easy answer. It at once allows me space to admit my faults and also relieve the blame from myself; I may be dependent or racist or not very confident, but it’s not my fault if my peers want to stay in the dorm more than I do.
 
But I don’t think that’s true. The culprit, I believe, is more related to a quality of my personality less obvious than culture shock can explain. I think I just don’t want to be alone because here that means I’m choosing to be. And really, the more I think it through the less culture shock seems to even fit at all.
 
My first solo day in Paris and the highlight of my trip: a Parisian cooking class.
I was in Paris before arriving in Rabat for four days and had the most fun when my friends from WPI left for Spain and I was on my own. I don’t speak French, didn’t ever excange currency to euros, had to study maps both in private and public to have my bearings, didn’t have cell service and depended on WiFi to communicate to my friends or family, didn’t feel comfortable that my belongings were very safe, the list goes on – but I don’t believe I ever experienced much culture shock. Of course, I noticed how things were different from back home, from the stereotypes, from my expectations – but I enjoyed the experience of learning. It was a brand new beast, and I was facing it alone, and I loved it. The difference between being comfortable alone in Paris and here in Morocco, is that now I’m not the only one. In Paris, I was on my own; here, I’m surrounded by people very much like me who are working towards similar goals as my own.

 
was nervous after signing up to come to Morocco for my Humanities project to find that friends had signed up together, unlike myself. I signed because I have always wanted to travel the world, this was a great opportunity, I didn’t know what else to do for my humanities, and I had the global scholarship, so it really just all made sense for me to go; the social aspect of being a solo passenger on a trip with groups of friends did not even cross my mind. But that is what I am on this trip, in terms of the Humanities students.
 
 Dom and Laura were already friends; Kam and Amir are close from Arabic; Ketaki, Sarah, and Mae all lived nearby in the same building last year. And then there’s me. I suppose Cassie would have been in a similar situation as myself, but her decision not to come to Morocco (while, of course, unfortunate) has actually turned out to really be a blessing in disguise for me. In high school, I had found myself with a lot of really good friends but from different friend groups, so I would kind of float around as desired.
 
We eat altogether almost every meal; sharing food creates familial bonds.
My time in Morocco has been very much reminiscent of that so far. Since Cassie was acquainted with Laura, I am roommates with Dom; this has allowed me to grow closer to her and Laura more than we would if they had roomed together. Separately, I share a mutual friend with the other three girls (as well as other connections) and so I’ve also gotten closer with Sarah, Ketaki, and Mae. Luckily, the six of us girls get along really well together so we do spend a lot of time all together – but I have been able to float around each of the two subgroups within the girls of the humanities program.
 
Okay, so then what’s the problem? I’m getting along with all the girls and feel really free and comfortable to change the group with whom I spend my time!
 
Well, that is my problem.
 
 Because I’ve gotten lucky in that I have an “in” to the two friend groups within the Humanities girls, I do feel a little uncomfortable operating outside of those groups. I haven’t done so much traveling and experimenting alone because I’m tethered to the newly deepening friendships to which I’ve been introduced. When I was in Paris, I was free to do anything anytime because I was the only person available. 

 
 

I don’t believe that now since I’m in a different country I suddenly am uncomfortable being on my own, but now I have the option – and dare I say, the expectation – to not be alone. I don’t think it’s simply just cultural unfamiliarity that makes me less comfortable being a solo tourist; for example, I felt much more paranoid about my belongings in Paris than I have here. While I’m certain the cultural differences do contribute, I think the small microcosm of WPI is what keeps me from being more independent. Because there are only a handful of girls with the same project type and schedule, it’s easier to stick with the group more than I might otherwise. This restricted social pool likely would have the same effects in Worcester as it has here.

 
If this post has been disappointing because instead of being about my time in Morocco, it’s only analyzed my experience in a very small community of my peers from WPI, I’ll briefly touch on (pun not intended) another observation I’ve made recently: people are very touchy here.
 

On Sunday when we had the lunch with many people our age with the Think Association, I was surprised at how many people took my hand and pulled my waist to show me around. Someone told me recently that women here are touchy with other women because there’s less physical contact between genders, but it was still a little jarring for me. I must admit I still mess up the cheek kisses every time, from either not making the smooching noise or trying to pull away too soon or whatever else, but the cheek kisses feel somehow still more natural than the contact in between greetings and good-byes. Even on the tram, people will brush past you to be the first out of the doors even if you’re getting off too. Perhaps in the States we are just more mindful of the personal bubble than people are here, for better or worse.

… what does that even mean?

Of all the things that went through my head prior to coming to Morocco, I can say with confidence that I never thought to myself “man, I can’t wait to be illiterate!” But… here I am, in a foreign country 3500 miles from home, and totally unable to read a solid 90% of written Arabic I come across. As an English speaker, I enjoy the benefits of knowing some vocabulary in French, but my situation for that language isn’t much better.

The strange truth is that not being able to read or write or speak the languages of Morocco has been simultaneously freeing and terrifying for me. From time to time, I worry about getting into situations where my level of Arabic simply won’t be enough to facilitate communication with Moroccans. For example, last week I was at the hanout buying spices to make dinner, and when the shop owner asked me what I wanted I realized I didn’t know the word for cayenne pepper. After trying to explain what I meant for a minute or two, I decided to just cut my losses and only buy cumin and paprika. It was discouraging to get tripped up on something so small, but it really reminded me of how little Arabic I know and how difficult things can be as a result.

Food labels are especially difficult to read! The text is small, and some of the words can be rather specific.

Even more frustrating is when I’m talking to someone and they can understand my (basic) Darija, but I can’t understand what the other person is saying. It feels like we’re so close to good communication, but at the same time so far from actually making the connection.

But at the same time I think that not relying on being able to read, in particular, makes Morocco more beautiful. It’s easy to get caught up in signs or posters as you walk down the street, but if you can’t read them, it allows you to appreciate your surroundings as a whole instead of focusing on one thing in particular. As a beginning Arabic speaker in Morocco I feel more free from the constant commercialization we experience everywhere we go in the US, essentially because I just don’t understand the advertisements. Inwi’s texting me trying to get me to buy something? Guess what, I just plain don’t understand what you want! What I’m getting at is that in our society in the US, we place a lot of emphasis on reading things, while ignoring our other senses. I consider myself lucky that while I’m here I’m forced to rely on more than just reading, since it opens the door to experiencing the country in other ways.

Likewise, I’ve experienced a similar phenomenon during live interaction with Moroccans. Being unable to fully express your thoughts in words or to interpret those of others means you’re forced to take note of other signals from them: expressions, gestures, body language. I know I’ve become at least a little bit more attentive to these smaller forms of communication in the absence of the verbal form. It makes me wonder how much information I’ve failed to notice from these more subtle clues during my interactions with friends, family, and other Americans.

I’ve really struggled with the fact that speaking with someone doesn’t just come naturally yet in Arabic. I’m at the point of conscious ineptitude, which is a fancy way to say that I’m bad at Arabic and I know it. At home in the US, I can speak to my friends and family and nearly everyone I meet on the street with no problems, because English is at this point so ingrained in my brain that I almost don’t have to even think about it. On the other hand, speaking Arabic here is so much more exhausting than speaking English at home, because in addition to managing a conversation as usual I have to exert some real energy just to make the words come out. But I know that it’ll be worth it. I recall being in a similar situation when learning Spanish – it’s really easy to fall into the trap of translating phrase by phrase in your head, which slowed me down so much. I won’t pretend to be fluent in Spanish, but I’ve learned to stop trying to translate it to English but instead get in the mindset to think in Spanish. I’m really hoping that my time in Morocco will do the same for me with Darija.

I can’t talk about my difficulties with speaking and reading the language here in Morocco without saying that I have noticed that Moroccans truly appreciate it when you attempt to speak Darija or Fusha, even when you can only say a few words. I always feel at ease when my “salam” or “shukran” elicit a polite response from the Moroccans I see each day, and an actual sentence usually draws out a full smile from them. In the United States, I don’t think we get excited like that for people speaking English, and now that I’m the one who’s learning the local language I feel a little bad for not being as positive with English learners as Moroccans are with me. I don’t think I quite appreciated it as much previously, because it’s difficult to understand exactly how it feels when you haven’t experienced it yourself. That’s certainly something I’ll take home with me, and try to spread to my friends and family – as long as I can put it into (English) words.

Amir and I have made an inside joke out of imitating the tram announcer saying “ITTIJAH: MADINAT AL-3IRFAN”, but I want to point out that “ittijah” is a word that I learned by living in Rabat instead of in class or through the internet. And our little joke has contributed a lot to me remembering what it means. In some sense, I’m a blank slate during my time here, and I’ll have to learn Darija by experiencing it and by using it in my life here. It’s difficult to ride the tram without knowing what “ittijah” and “al-mahata al-qaadima” mean, so I learned them. That’s pretty amazing, you know, how easily we can learn things when we need to know them.

“al-mahata” in the real world

Besides, there’s so much to experience in Morocco that you don’t need words for. There’s history here that you can almost feel in the air, and Moroccan friendliness and hospitality transcends the language barrier. In the future I’ll strive to extend that same goodwill to those visiting the US for the first time, since I’ll have been in their place.

First Impressions

The first thing I get asked as an American student studying abroad in Morocco is “What were your expectations and how does it compare?”. Coming into Morocco, I tried not to have any expectations because I did not want that to influence my experiences. I still heard many things, and of course, I wasn’t completely unbiased. I had heard both positive and negative things from so many different places. Before I left, every person that heard I was living in Morocco for two months had something to say about it, even my dentist.

 Not having a lot of preconceived ideas about the country made it so that not many things surprised me. One of the things I did not expect about Morocco is the similarities between India and Morocco. Both Morocco and India are developing countries with a lot of tradition backing them. In America, everything is comparatively new. The oldest things that are still standing are less than 400 years olf. In India and Morocco, civilization is thousands of years old. There is a lot of mixing of traditional old and rapidly developing modern society. Walking through the medina, you will see satellite dishes attached to buildings that are thousands of years old. The roads are insane and pretty disorganized. Walking down the street, you will see young people dressing in a reflection of the old and new societies. I have seen a woman in a hijab use the hijab to hold her phone in place while she was on a phone call. There is a lot of similarities in hospitality. Everywhere you go, you are offered tea and snacks. People will want to speak to you and ask you questions, and they are genuinely interested in you as a person. Although, that might just be because we are foreigners.

One of the biggest things I heard from everyone is Moroccan hospitality. When Professor Brahimi first told us the story about the girls a few years ago who got invited to the house of someone they met in the medina, I didn’t think that could ever really happen. I thought it was a rare case. However, just a few days ago we met several students from Mohammed V University. We were speaking for a few hours, and one of the most shocking things was that there were never any awkward silences. Frequently when meeting new people, I feel like there are several paused where people are scrambling to find something to talk about. When meeting with the Moroccan students, conversation flowed so smoothly the whole time. It never felt like I was searching for a new topic, and we easily moved from one subject to another. Even after only meeting for two hours, the students were so excited to meet us again and get our contact information. I shared my number with over ten students, and I have currently been messaging one of them to make plans to meet again.
We also became friends with someone at the Rabat Policy Forum. I was entering this conference with the thought of trying to network to find contacts for my research project. I really didn’t have much hope because my project is very unrelated to politics and policy. I did not get any contacts but we met Sara. We also had hours of great conversation with her and have plans to meet her again soon as well! As someone who usually struggles to make friends, it has been an interesting experience. Moroccans are definitely a lot friendlier than I expected them to be.I am looking forward to the next few months here, especially with making new friends and meeting more people!

Clean Plate Club

One of the most compelling reasons I wanted to do my Humanities project abroad was because I was so drawn to the idea of trying Moroccan food. I do not feel even slightly weird acknowledging the fact that I am so food-oriented that I signed up to leave the continent and learn Arabic partially to eat new food. In my experience so far in this country, I have been really happy with the food – but there is something that has been very unnerving to me at restaurants:

People leave behind their bread.

My favorite Moroccan food: couscous, chicken, and vegetables. A guaranteed ticket to the clean plate club for me.

For the life of me, I cannot understand how one could literally be given a basket full of bread and walk away without finishing it. There have been more times than I can count that I have been so tempted to get up and take the food left behind on tables and take it for myself so that it won’t go to waste.

Whenever we go out to restaurants, we ask for more baskets of bread, sometimes even more than once. The waiters do not know what’s coming to them when they give these American girls studying Humanities a table at their restaurant. Our first night in Tanger, we had stray dogs and cats tromping around the edge of the outdoor restaurant hoping to be fed scraps and I watched at least three tables completely ignore their complementary bread while our table absolutely destroyed three heaping basketfuls before our entrees even reached the table.

At Cafe Hafa, which seems to be more for the scenery than the service.

At Cafe Hafa in Tanger, I was distracted from the beautiful views of the Mediterranean and Spain by everyone around us who would order an espresso, drink half of it, and leave. Or the people who wouldn’t fully finish their omelet and let the waiter take it away however many minutes later. Or the people behind us who ordered two delicious looking crepe-like breakfast breads with some jam on top and mint teas and left without hardly touching them! Even though my back was to that table and I was facing the view, I kept turning around because I was just so completely thrown by how they ignored so much perfectly good food. (It didn’t help that we were really hungry at this point and still didn’t have our order taken or bread on the table – but still!)

Here in Morocco, the US dollar goes further than it does at home. I looked up the minimum wage in Morocco and it is roughly $300 per month. Yet complementary food and even food that is ordered and paid for seems to be so easily thrown away while I really make sure to get the most of my meals and join the clean plate club.

I could not for the life of me understand this phenomenon that recurs and recurs, and I even had to bring it up to the university students we met. They said that usually the bread that is served with a meal in restaurants isn’t the best bread they can get, so they tend to ignore it. While I can kind of follow that logic (I say kind of because really that bread that was served on our first night in Tanger was absolutely delicious, so I have a hard time imaging how bread can be so much better), I still don’t like the idea of leaving food behind. Maybe it just goes to show that Americans eat much more than we need to, but honestly I try my best to waste as little food as I can, even if it’s not the best food that I can get.

I’m not sure if it’s just a product of who I happen to be around, or if it’s just common to not finish food here, but I don’t think any amount of time living here will make me feel less compelled to finish everything that’s on the table. I could understand leaving just a little on the plate or in the bread basket to wanting to avoid being the one to take the last piece; but to leave an entire breakfast crepe and half of a mint tea or espresso? I really think the next time I see that, I will actually get up from my seat and take the untouched food for myself. In my opinion, no bread deserves to be ignored.

Worries and Hopes

 My flight to Morocco is in a few hours and so many conflicting feelings are running through my mind. Of course, I am excited. I can’t wait to go to Morocco after all this preparation. I knew over a year ago that I wanted to travel to Morocco for my humanities capstone, but there was always a doubt in my mind that I would actually get there. I am looking forward to exploring Rabat and other cities in Morocco. There are so many new things and different things to anticipate. Warm weather. Mint tea. Beautiful cities. The busy medinas. It will be a very different environment to what I am used to.
But there is also a lot of negative and anxious thoughts. Am I prepared? Is it worth it? Will I actually learn things? Will it be as exciting an experience as I have been hoping it will? What if I don’t adjust well? A lot of these thoughts are similar to when I was going to college for the first time. I did not think I was prepared at all to go to college and live away from home. And while this was something I had been preparing towards for years, the combined pressures of education and responsibility were a lot to adjust to. I struggled a lot to manage everything and it took most of the first year for me to really have a good time at school. It’s a little worrying of what the adjustment period will be like doing the same thing, but in a country 4000 miles away and no way to get home and escape.
 
I know that it will definitely be a learning experience. As much as I have prepared with Arabic courses and preparation courses, being in Morocco will be a wildly different experience. I know that studying in Morocco will be worth all of the worries and anxieties leading up to it. By the end of the term, I am hoping to have a deeper understanding of Morocco and Moroccan culture. I want to be able to hold a short conversation in Darija, even if I am nowhere near fluent. I want to try some delicious new food, and I want to become skilled at bargaining in the Medina! Overall, I hope that by the end of this trip I feel like I took complete advantage of all the opportunities offered to me and that I had a great time!

adventures

I have tried extremely hard to keep my perceptions to a minimum. I wanted to go into this experience with an open mind and form my opinions based on what I see and hear myself rather than what other people tell me.  I think all my anxieties are based on spending so much time away from my family rather than being fearful of spending time in Morocco. I have never been away from my family for 7 weeks and have my reservations about it. The only time I’ve even been out of the country was 12 days in high school I am close with my whole family and while I’m excited and grateful for this opportunity I’m still nervous about leaving them. I have a lot of anxiety about not letting myself have the time of my life because I’m too homesick. I don’t want to focus on the negatives of this trip I want all my attention to be on why it’s going to be amazing.

 

Every time I call my mom I have a little buyers remorse. Two months isn’t a long time in the grand scheme of things but when your sick and exhausted emotions tend to run high. My mom was also very against the trip from the start. She loves Holyoke and sees no reason to venture from her safe comfort zone. I love my mom with all my heart but I don’t want to go through life uneducated about the world. I want to see, I want to experience. Massachusetts isn’t enough for me no matter how much I love the people there. I need more.

 

I think once I’m in the beautiful country of Morocco taking in all there is to offer I won’t be homesick anymore. I hope to gain a lot of perspective on this trip. Being from the United States there is no real culture division. I want to immerse myself in the culture and get as much as I can. I also want to learn to spend time away from home to prepare myself for the future.